I Think It's Killing Me

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ellipsis - i think its killing me

poison to envision
body's not my own
invoke my possession
forest is burning
stumps of trees
amputees crowd my mind
(as we begin to move)

let these rituals end
i think its killing me
the things we learn to do
make me less than i am
can't you see
slide into sleep
seep into dreams

let these rituals end
they're killing me
the things we learn to need
take away all that we have
forest is burning
choking on air

can you remember
before the smoke came
to cloud our eyes
can’t you see the way it
slides into sleep
seeps into dreams

walk out
show me
walk out
dream me
trees dance in my mind
bodies fall in time
as we begin to move

look me in the eyes
its killing me
infected with violence
take away everything real
ghost of myself
dissects my silence
the dawn and the day
fracture my face
the forest burns
and we begin to move

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I THINK IT'S KILLING ME

E A E
No man digs slower than the one digging his own grave
E A E
Cos when he's done he knows he'll be grinning til Judgement Day
G Bm D A E
Never thought a boy could bucket out the sea
G Bm D A C E7sus4 A7
My heart is on fire, I think it's killing me
C E7sus4 E
I think it's killing me

E A E
"Carpe Diem", so the bathroom wall proclaimed
E A E
But I just get up to go back to sleep again
G Bm D A E
Never thought a boy could bucket out the sea
G Bm D A C E7sus4 A7
My heart is on fire, I think it's killing me
C E7sus4 E
I think it's killing me

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"I think it's killing me"
Milwaukee Youth Center Choir

I'm not sure, but I think it's killing me.
I'm not sure. How could I be?
At times like these it's impossible
to know anything with certainty.
And I don't think I need your sympathy,
but then again who's to say
that you're not my only way.
I'm not sure, but I think it's killing me.
I'm not sure if it should or it shouldn't be.
It's all so complicated, it's all so obscure.
I think it's killing me. Can't say for sure.
And I don't think I need your sympathy,
but then again who's to say
that you're not my only way.

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fluffy porcupine / i think it's killing me

there's something in my eye
but i feel like i could fly
a bright light came to me in a dream
skies of pink clouds tangerine

everything i do or see or think
depends upon the stuff i drink

i think that it is killing me
every time i take a sip of tea
the stuff of dreams, it fills in the seams
bright shiny lights inside my dreams

i cannot go without a drink or three
i feel like it is surrounding me

i could quit but that will not do
another dose for me and you

[ken]

by ZangDog

You've given meaning to this life
And meaning means so much to me
But I've been thinking about this life
And I think it's killing me

Coming together brings a breaking apart
Loving that woman brings a broken heart

Making friends means losing them
I can't hold on though I try
Love is being blind to anicca
Life is being born to die

Had I been a victim of Captain Moonlight
When my lover's heart was silenced in the night

I'll lay you into your sarcophagus
We could do it the Roman way
When the limestone would consume the flesh
I think my age treats me that way

They say it's better to love and lose
But really none of us can choose

Father time has not been kind
In his gifts of caducity
He gave me all I could love
And took them all away from me

I said I was yours, and you said you were mine
So why did you have to go and get old and die

This old life is full of grief
And I think it's killing me