Liner notes
Well I'm not sure I've met the challenge to bring my A-game on this - songs like this while simple are very hard for me to pull off well but it just wasn't physically, musically, or emotionally possible this time. The subject of loss has personally struck home with me, with the passing of my uncle, who I loved very much, on June 25. I wrote this song specifically about losing him, but wanted to extend it so that anyone who'd lost a friend might relate. And he was a friend to me, as well as my mom's brother. I think the lyrics can mostly be universal about all the things that start happening when grief strikes, the stunned and stunted feelings, the wishing more had been done, the desire to remember things as they had been and not how they turned out. I didn't cover anger here so much, it just isn't the space for that, but I wanted to express the many confusing aspects of grappling with sudden loss, as I had stuff to get off my own chest, and I had seen many expressions of grief surrounding the passing of the influential Song Fighter Blue, and maybe folks who are feeling his loss, or the loss of someone else they cared about, can find something here that they relate to. Best wishes all who are working through grief. And all who are not.
Well I heard the news
And it knocked me down cold
Never in a million years
Not with crystal ball foretold
I'm wandering dumbstruck
As the memories flood in
Inundating my heart
I'm riding high then drowning
Ch:
Blue - was the color of your eyes
Now it's the color of a long goodbye
The blue that runs into the cracks
Hard to believe you're never coming back
May your memory never fade
Keep on turning towards those better days
And if there's anyone waiting at the end
I hope that you're there my lovely friend
V2:
All this time you had been there
I turn and then you're gone
Unreality creeps in
Sun will set, return with dawn
I'm a thousand miles away
Couldn't have reached you so it seems
We're eternity apart
Chasm between life and dream
Middle:
The words come now but thin and cheap
Something to fill the emptiness
Something was off when last I saw you
Wish I'd really known how serious
But mustn't dwell on last rough years
Whenever we regale your story
You were a man so full of life
Return you to those days of glory
Chorus.